whatever...chill....

weird title, dont u think? actually those two words were basically the words which never fails to ruin my mood and hurt my feelings whenever it was spoken to me...why??? easy bad memory revolving around those word...i am so sorry, to everyone, who always try to comfort me with the 'chill' word, but my mood turns really sour after that..i just cant help it..u may say i'm such a sensitive, pathetic, not matured girl...say what u want, but its just who i am...but i'm still trying to not let my bad mood caused by this two words ruin those people around me..i promise to keep it to myself..but, just so u all know, i really despise these 2 words...

okayy thats it...bye2!

risau...

here we are again, talking about the famous worrisome word - risau (worry)

I am more worried about u, than I worry for myself..please do know that...
yes, I was hurt by you, several time but I guess I know the real reason behind it..I fully understand the conflict that u are facing...but please do know that I care for u more than u'll ever knOw..be strong..

it worries me...and that feeling keep on hitting me, full force at times, but I should never be bothered by it..cz it's not proper and not my place to do so..

honestly my feelings are sO out of place that it seems like I am no longer coherent...all my words are jumbled up and my sentences are not Properly structured...I am not good in putting my raw emotions into words..not like how I used to long time before...I just hope that u'll find ur peace and never feel lonely ever again...

puisi sepi:

Kulari ke hutan kemudian menyanyiku
Kulari ke pantai kemudian teriakku
Sepi sepi dan sendiri
Aku benci
Aku ngin bingar
Aku mau di pasar
Bosan aku dengan penat
Dan enyah saja kau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri
Pecahkan saja gelasnya
Biar ramai

I don't know why I put puisi rangga...as I say I'm worried sick that what I wrote doesn't seem to make sense at all...

P/s: please be happy, I always love seeing u smile... :)(;

random photos #4

photoS were taken when we jalan2 in melaka, this photos were actually from hari jalan2 sedunia special edition feat. fatin (ma sis^^) yeah, i know i didnt update u guys about hari jalan2 sedunia siri 2 and diz one..maybe later...

photoS were taken by Izza Farhana

thats all for now,

toodles..

waiting...

arghh...its exciting and frustrating as well...please arrived soon..i've been expecting to have u for so long..oh please, oh please, let me have it by today..

flood-it

a new game...really addictive and i am currently loving it..and for the first time after too many trials,

I WON!!!!!

wohoooooo!!!

the art of telling whats obvious

assalammualaikum...

everyone have done mistakes in their life..no one is perfect, but those who realized their mistakes and try to be better are the ones i salute and respect the most...

why talk about mistake today?

i dunno, maybe because i just dis some mistakes...somehow i do know its my mistake..

okayy, here's the thing, someone asked me to go out with him (a movie)..i tried to decline by giving so many reasons, like that would be during exam week and i'm going to go back early..gladly the guy get the message and say its okay...

i know where i did wrong...i didnt state clearly my ground and leaving spaces for that guy to try and asked again..yes i know, i should tell them downright, that i would never go out with guys cz my religion doesnt permits something like dat eventhough just as friends..i know, but i didnt do it bcz, i dont want him to feel bad..i dont want to hurt his feeling, after all he helped me a lot when no one else didnt...yes, maybe perhaps if he ever tried and asked me again, i'll just tell the truth...

that's not exactly why i decided to write this post..its just some background info before the main point...see, i know my mistake, u know what i did was mistake, but do u really have to yell "hey, that's a mistake" with those judging tones right to my face? No..lets take another example..u have a girl friend, who didnt cover her aurat properly, and sometimes she would say to u that she feels something when she see u covered your aurat right...would u say yes, you are wrong by not covering ur aurat properly, and u say it in a tone which is clearly judging....tell me, would she ever listen to u? no. she wouldnt. worst, if she was hurt by your accusation and she will never feel guilty for not covering her aurat and she stop being close to u...when she become far from u, she will never feel something again since u are the reason she feels a tinge guilt for not covering her aurat in the first place...are u going to held the responsibility?

lets see it in another situation, when she told u bout her guilt, u say "that's feeling was given to u by Allah, Allah wanted you to be closer to him. try not to ignore that feeling." and then starts advicing her in a way that she could take it and will gladly follow...sometimes, i do think different background makes us different in dealing with the situation...using the same case as example; if u were used to covering your aurat since u were little, the act of covering your aurat properly will come naturally for u, as easy as breathing....and sometimes u couldnt comprehend why ur friend have hard time just trying to cover her aurat, and then u start judging--->thats not exactly the right thing to do if u wanted to show how beautiful Islam is. this is just my opinion.

furthermore, everyone is entitled for their own opinion, this is what i thought, u dont have to agree with me, u could disagree with me, but then the way u express yo're disagreement should be mature and not judging that my opinion is so wrong, and only yours are right..

bottom-line is, when u heard of action that ur friends, relative or someone u cared about and u did not agree with their action, before voicing out your retort, stops for a while and take a minute to think, why did he/she did that? why didnt he/she thinks like u did? was it because of different background and perception? there are a lot to be considered...i am not saying that u cannot say anything when ur friend did something wrong, yes, u could tell him/her that its wrong, but do it nicely, do not judge her/him..mind your words and intonnation, insyaAllah, ur friend will understand and take your advice..as simple as that..

i am just saying, this is what i thought...i might be wrong in certain thing, correct me if u will but please do it in a good manner...

إنما بعثت لأتم صالح الاخلق

”Sesungguhnya aku diutus untuk menyempurnakan akhlak yang sholeh”. (HR: Bukhari dalam shahih Bukhari kitab adab, Baihaqi dalam kitab syu’bil Iman dan Hakim). quoted from: here

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please dont judge me..if what i did was wrong:
tell me and i will listen
shout at me and i will rebel
advice me with hikmah and insyaAllah i will follow

p/s: i am still learning to be better :')

before i go and study material science, i just have to post this...

i look weird without my specs..like seriously...need proof? look at this:

and oh, btw, this photo was taken in times square...i went there with fatin and we did enjoy ourselves..tremendously, just before that phonecall..*sigh* mama will always be mama...back to the point, i do look weird right? hehe..

really have to stop web surfing now, i promised myself, i'll be revising material science tonite..so bye!

guys

hello everyone....its been a while, oh wait, i forgot i just post something yesterday and i already forgot about it..nvm..actually something has been going on now in my life and i dunno where to put it...this is actually a secret..is it? if it is, i shouldnt be posting it here right? haha...

let me think..

hmm...seriously maybe not now...and please do not wander..i am not saying anything bout that "guys" here..and if u were wondering, i did write guy with s..which could only mean....haha...

i'm not saying anything..just have to go now...bye2 then...

long time no write

haha...seriously, i missed my blog, and i missed u all, those who actually read my blog..if any of u are reading it...i am fine actually, just i dont want to write...why? simple, i really thought my update would not be educational and would not give benefit to those who reads it...the same dilemma goes when i wanted to update my FB status, which is why i seldom updated my stats in FB...but then i think back, this blog is private not like my FB wall, so eventough i babble in here, no one will know, except for u..yess i now, u are reading this...but if u are lookiing for something benificial to read and gain knowledge from, please do stop and do not continue reading. cz this would probably be another stupid rant from a shallow-minded girl which apparently me..hahaha..so stop! and thanx for stopping by.....
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for those who stay and continue reading, please be aware, i am totally shallow and childish and u might be sick of my complaining and babble about my life, but u stayed and read anyway which makes u the one i LOVED the most!! muahx....hahaha

right now, i'm actually panicking since exams is just around the corner and i havent been studying...i miss myself in KUIN, especially during first and 2nd sem..when i really have fun studying...but now? i dont really know...*sigh* i'm almost done with all of my assignment, just 2 presentation left on the list to do, then i promise, i'll study extra hard..hoping to do so....speaking of presentation, i have one tmr, and i already promised my gang (group actually, but somehow it sound cooler saying 'gang'..haha) that we would practice at 8 pm, which is....OMG its 7:59 already, i really have to go...there's still so much to be shared...nvm..later...

love ya!