repost

i have posted this before as my facebook status thus the title, i just thought i want to share it again so u'll understand...^^

❤ Girl's Language :

If She Don't Text You :
- It's Because She's Waiting For You To Text Her

When She Walks Away From You Mad :
- Follow Her

When Shes Quiet :
- Ask Her What's Wrong

When She Ignores You :
- Give Her Your Attention

When She Pushes YOU AWAY :
- Pull Her BACK

When You See Her Crying :
- Wipe Her Tears & Ask What's Wrong

When She Says Go Away :
- Just Go Close To Her & Give Her Hug ❤

need someone to talk to

how can i talk to u when i get the vibe that u just dont care? i am not that stupid..if u really cares, u would asked why when i:
1. *insertyourname*......... :'( [e.g; awak.... :'( ]
2. when  do this :) non-stop..
3. when i said i'm okay but decide to quickly drop the subject..

thats it..i miss my bff..very much.they would know me best..and they actually CARE about me..

*frustrated with all this dissapointment feelings*

random photos #5

i know, i need to really start studying, but please, just one more post..., i promise it will be very short! >.<

i LOVE that girl in pink very much, but i have quite a unique way of showing it..*sigh*

pujuk...

Knape bile us girl sediyh,  comes the word pujuk...xkrela girl tu, ur sister or ur friends or ape sahaja..sometimes they told u their problems not expecting u to have the magic or effective solution to their problem, they just seek comfort from those who they thought care about them..so, simple fact, if someone told u their problems and it's got nothing to do with u, it can only means two things..

1. they are seeking for advice, or
2. they just wanted u to give reaction as if u care...

that's all..take me for example, when I feel super sad, I called my father like I already wrote before..(didn't remember? Refresh here!) he was just laughing, but the sound of his laughter give me the feeling of warmth and suddenly I know, even if the person who made me cry doesn't care about me, I still have him..he cares about me A LOT!! as simple as that...but sometimes there is just thing u couldn't talk to ur father about.. So here where my sis and friend comes in...

so, girls and guys out there, if ur friends were obviously sad about something, if u can't do number one, just proceed to number two..it's not that hard right?

saya dah tembam..

actually i havent noticed this until yeaterday...i've heard mama and fatin saying and commenting that i looked like i've gained weight a LOT since they last saw me, but i just ignored them and convincing myself that it wasnt true..they were just jealous, i've been eating well..hahaha..but yesterday, when i was at rozan's, and there was this big mirror, where u can actually see yourself from top to bottom..after analyzing myself for a while, yeah, i came up with a conclusion, i do look chubby..*sigh* no wonder that there was this person who wished to call me bambam (short form for tembam (meaning; chubby) *-,-)

guess, i just have to start working hard to shed some of those extra fats...please let me be true to my plan..o Allah, i seek from u strength to fight with my desire to do lack of exercise and more of eating and sleeping, o Allah, please let me be strong to start fasting again every mondays and thursdays, so that i could heal both my emotional level and physical level...

go go faratul!!! that's how u do it..

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but....

hurmmmm...cn we start tommorrow? haha..

Boyfriends...

It's been a while since I last wrote....still that doesn't mean that I've forgotten all about my dearest reader (there I go again, talking like I have thousands reader, but being over imaginative doesn't hurt right?)

Back to the title for today...boyfriends...someone who are dearest to me at the time being...since I put 's' at the end of that controversial noun, i do mean it literally..it indicates plurality...so let's go through with it one by one...

Boyfriend No 1
why exactly I pick this person as my number one, his love for me were unquestionable and as far as the whole land and as deep as an ocean...he cares for me and often cry for me..he wAs the most compassionate person anyone have ever known..yet, I ignore his love...I turned away from all his advices...I shied away from his love, and sometime I do despise myself, why am I so stubborn in accepting those love...so, now, I'm trying my best to put him in the very first place (for boyfriends) in my heart...it is hard, but still I am trying my best to do so...this person was the most admirable person ever walked on earth, Prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h..(selawat dan salam buat Nabi Muhammad serta ahli keluarga dan sahabat baginda) I'd really wish to be able to meet him one day...InsyaAllah..

Boyfriend No 2
Sometimes I do think that I dont deserve such unrequited love from this person..I've never done anything that made me entitled for that vast love...all I did since I was a little girl  was just hurting him, and giving him headache with my temper tantrum, he did get totally angry with me but he still loves me...all through my crisis teenager year when I was a bit lost in finding my own identity, he didn't look at me yet he still accepts me, he help me find my own way, in his very own unique way..he cares for us like a princess..not in a way by giving us so much leisure..but by protecting us, as if an time had persons might kidnap us or hurt us...he would do anything for us his daughters...yes the person I'm talking about is Mr. Harun Hashim, my one and only caring father..I'd really wish I could make him real proud of me one day...pinky promise..

Boyfriend No 3
Here, this one is entirely a different story, he always pained me with headache, he was and still is stubborn but at times he could be very understanding, sometimes he is sweet ( usually there will be a hidden motive there) , but then what can I say, he certainly knows how to make me laugh, better yet, pisses me off...his ego was as bigger as mine, yet we do get along together...sometimes he call me sayang over the phone, just because he wanted to, and it never failed making me want to puke all my last meals out...he likes to brag, about everything just so he could look cool...he hated every guy that made me; his older sister, cries...hehe, I'm currently writing about my devilishly naughty lil brother Mohd Kautsar Harun..and also he have grown taller than I am and turn out quite good looking (just don't ever tell him I said that)...because of his tall-ness, he always pat my head when comforting me if I bawl like a baby...thehehe>.< ...aaaa, since I was already writing abou how my lil brother treat me like I'm his younger sis, I just wanted to add that,  thanx to my baby-like face...I was officially the youngest in my siblings, plus fatin is more matured than I ever did...

Boyfriend No 4
At last, we come to the end of the list, to be truthful, this spot is still empty and up for application...haha..I was reserving this last spot, but never the least, for that special someone who will do me the honor of choosing me as his 'bidadari' as Hilal put it.. :)
Honestly, this bf no 4 need to have at least the respect of bf no 2 and 3 and also really adore bf no 1..I've been liking many guys all this years, yet none really gain the respect of my bf no 2, its only logical cz none of them were man enough to face my bf no 2, just expecting me to tell my bf no 2 , the whole story...so, my future hubby, if u were reading this, please be man enough to do it the right way..

I'll be the one giving answers but that doesn't mean I'm the one you should asked the question to...

That's it for now...till later...xoxoxo

sedih

hari nie sy rase sedih, rase xdhargai..
hmmmm...mungkin slh sendiri,
niat cuma meluahkn rasa di hati,
tapi telah disalah erti..

malu
segan
sakit
sedih
benci

slalu hadir rasa ini,
cube menenangkn setiap kali,
namun, tetap terus disakiti,
adakah perlu ku mengundur diri,
kerna hati minta dilindungi,
agar xterluka lagi

cukup sudah,
lupakan sahaja,
baik,
aku buang,
tenanglah

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salam ulangtahun, bg mereka yg lahir di bulan februari.. :')