browsing through my phone today, i came across a message,

Jika timbul kesedaran untuk meninggalkan cinta seorang lelaki, itu bermakna Allah mahu mengambil kita kembali untuk dijaganya

this make me think of something. what if the love from a man decide to leave us, does that mean Allah is giving us a choice of turning back to him for comfort or another man. if i were to choose now, i would choose Allah since His love was so great that u wouldnt feel deprived even if u have to share it. but if its me from before do the deciding, i would no doubt turn to other man for comfort. what a complete fool i am before. but now i know whats in store for me, aftr leaving kms and i'm glad i'm becoming a better person. i am not exactly perfect yet. ther's still time i would prefer doing lagha stuff instead of zikrullah, my playlists are still full with song which has no whatsoever connection to praising Allah, but i'm still trying to change..and permanent changes need time, but most important of all doa' ask Allah to help on improving, being a much better person, InsyaAllah, He will help you. providing ways which will make it easier for u to change. i sincerely hope so. anyway this post does sound gloomy written by a heartbroken person but seriously, i am relieved. maybe by thinking of Allah it soothe your heart. plus i still have the love of other man, and its unconditional for me.. my father..

Terima Kasih Ya Allah kerana sudi menyayangi diri ini,

Terima Kasih Ya Allah kerana sering mendengar pengharapan serta pengaduanku,

terima kasih Ya Allah kerana sering bersama-sama denganku,

x kira apa keadaan imanku,

Sesungguhnya Ya Allah,

cintaku hanya milikMU...