blessed with love

ever felt that u were surrounded by love? different kind of loves maybe...since there were so many people who might love you..but the way they love you could vary the degree of sweetness or awfulness..depends on how you look at it..but all the same they all care bout you..well, thats exactly what i'm feeling now..i got parents who loves me, who shares my hurts when i'm hurt over something eventough they might be overprotective at times, still they love me..i have sister who loves me for who i am, eventough i'm not as perfect as i was before, all glam and clever still she loves me eventough i've turned into a bitch and didnt let her borrow my ladtop..(what? i'm a person who hold grudges..i have a brother who loves me, keeping my secrets..friends who supported me despite all mistakes i've done..a grandpa who was totally worried bout my future..one ustazah who cares for me lyke her own sister, or daughter and knows me too well, no matter how hard i try to hide how much hurt i am in..adik2 tahfiz who pampered me everytime i was sick..and also a friend who i held dearest to my heart..who might love me unconditionnaly, for me, not for who i pretented to be jz lyke other guy i've fallen for before, he knows me, the only onei dont have to pretend, who i can be perfectly honest to, who handle all my childish complaint with grace (when in good mood) and really an interesting person to be with as we dont share anything in common, but somehow we can still get along just fine...

BUT!! one love that i shouldnt forgot of..unconditional love from my god, ALLAH..and what i should return, but still having problem on trying to really loves ALLAH as my creator, as the one that gives me everything that i had, and a reminder when i'm lost bak kate ustazah, masalah itu, cubitan kasih dari ALLAH supaya kita mengingatiNYA, itu tanda DIA sayang kita hambanye..i'm still improving myself..the first way was to love myself..than i can love ALLAH and everyone else..quoted from a book i've read recently from my favourite author -Pahrol Mohd Juoi (Tentang Cinta) "jika anda selalu jatuh cinta, itu bermakna anda belum berjaya mencintai diri sendiri" that's how i was before, cant stop falling for guys every time..yeah sounds lyke a bitch..i know..just a little small talk, a smile, a kind gesture, some caring stuff and i was stuck..really i do..so i have to stop now, focusing on only one..until i set out to build a bainnati jannati with one guy who loves me because of me and because of ALLAH, so that i can be with him till the end..sound lyke a fairy tale..but i'm sure going to make it happen..loves not based from HIM would be easy to forget and bruised with little argument and i surely doesnt want that..(wouldnt you too? i'm talking to u who talked on phone with me last nite..yes you!)

thats it for now.. i was full of love that i felt a little giddy..hehe..i love myself, and everyone who loves me and ALLAH and HIS prophet MUHAMMAD..

p/s: sorry..really wanted to talk to you but have to refrain myself..till next tyme!! ntah bile la kn, it might be another long tyme..no worries it only make it sweeter...

cny

haha..actually i dont really get my post title. hehe. right now, i'm alone in cyber cafe in city plaza. spending my own time since i nrefuse to hang out with kosar and his friends. what would people think if they saw me with three boys. totally embarassing. so, i decided to have my own leisure time doing what i love most. visiting bookstores! jz lyke what i always did with sumone but now really alone. never mind, i just love books. theyre lyke drugs to me. even i find bookstores has a soothing environment. since i have a really bad weekend, i guess, i deserve a treat. so, i go on escalator until i found popular bookstores and guess what? its empty! i mean not literally empty, its closed because of CNY. so, i'm stuck in this cyber cafe, waiting for calls from kosar, if they were ready to get home. huh. boring. anyway, i'm really hoping i can go to book fair this year since i cant last year. huhu. well, in march my family and i would be going balik kampung. so i really truly hoped, the date would be the same as the book fair and i can go. really hoping so..pray for me too..hehe. dats it. i have to go now. daag. nway i have a really stressfull and exhausting weekend. till later

good nite

tooth-fairy-princess needs her beauy sleep..good nite to everyone..dnt forget to wake up early tomorrow for subuh prayer...ecspecially, ME, myself...

in my blogs theres alot of error, spelling mistakes lyke doctror in my blog title and most recent post shgort was supposed to be short (thanx 2 my no 1 fan for realizing my mistakes n both mistakes were told by this fan. hawk eye. ntah pape jek) anyway, i'm not going to edit it. let it stay there. as a memorial of my carelessness. well, after all dats part of my charm. haha. dat what i said. dat make you interesting. someone said. du-uh, bkan same je kew?

p/s: if lapar, ask ur sweetheart to cook for u la..

post for my fan..inspiring la sangat..haha

now sitting in my living room watching flight plan with apis and kosar. its fun to hang out with them, eventough some tyme they were annoying but mostly funny. haha. anyway, i cant stand the slow pace of this movie, so i decided to check out for spoiler in internet. luckily i stumbled into one. i read it word by word and i show off la. haha. i told them who was the bad guy. turns out sumone you would never expect. to be honest, at first i dont have any idea to write, but since my blog have it own fan demanding for more (yes,i was talking about you, jgn wat2 xtaw plak). right now, i'm watching this movie completely alone. both kosar and apis were fast asleep. so much of wanting to teman. huh. cant be trusted. btw, i learned new word today xtli = actually, haha. this shgort form-ing gives me a headache. seriously how can anyone survive without getting major migrain because of confusion. and just for the record i am not old citizen keyh, only old-school a lil bit. get something to eat la! ok. dh blank balek. full stop. the end.

check this out....new song by corbin bleu

moments that matters by corbin bleu


Looking back on a photo album of my life
It's the little things that make us smile
That, that, that, that make us smile

Like the very first time that you discovered true love
It's a feeling you can't describe
But it always stays on your mind

Or the first time you hear a song on the radio
that gives you goose bumps all over from head to toe or the time you stayed up all night talking on the phone and you looked up
and realize she's staring
at the same star as you are

{Chorus}
'Cause that's what gets me sentimental (Sentimental)
That's what life is all about (Yeah, Yeah)
That's what gets me all emotional
More than all the things I can do without
cause I figured out,these are the moments that matter, matter

(refrain)
And I figured out, that these are the moments that mean the most to me
Cuz I know I got friends , trust, family, and love all around me that should be enough and I figured out these are the moments that matter to me

The one thing that I cherish when I'm on the road is I know Im never alone
Just look around at sunsets and waterfalls and you know that Gods very close(cause the worlds full of miracles)

Its like the first time that I learned my history
Cuz my dad took the time, took my eyes , broke it down for me
I still remember my mother askin me how my day went
when I came home from school and these are some sweet memory
(chorus)
(Refrain)

Keep people you love close to you ,
Cuz when it gets tough the'll help you pull through,
no Don't let anybody take your moment from you
Cuz thats all that matters in the end