something knocks me

actually, i've been blog-hopping (a thing that i did this past few weeks, every time i tried to write something in my blog), but usually i would not found anything that make me want to post something, yet today i found a post..it connected to me in such a way that i myself couldnt understand...how this girl really, truly try to get over sumthing or sumone should i say...she was what i thought as hard on herself, which i am so cowardly refused to do, but i get repeated heartache in return of my cowardice..still who could i fool? even now, i still get visits from that oh-so-familiar heartache, every now and then..

hmmmm....

i really did not know what to do..

or to be exact, i'm afraid to do the thing that should be done...

and why is that? im afraid that it'll hurt me...

but didnt i already hurt bad enough not doing anything?

argh~~~~~

how about, lts leave it at that.dont want to think about it anymore...

in another word...go on, do nothing..and let yourself hurt more!

serves u right..you COWARD!!

i'm tired..already...khe mane...khe man-aja..let stop it..

for tonite at least...i better get some rest...

closure with HIM maybe...HE would listen..i know..

let me feel calm after reading HIS love letter..

please let me be....