shoulder to cry on

taking into account the series of recent event occuring in my life, i'd really want to pay tribute to those person who i would always turn to whenever i felt really down and very2 very2 sad...this people are a bunch of interesting people because the way they handle my problems were different... okay, lets start with people i would call when i am still in the stressed out mood and cried a lot while telling them..

1. my sis, fatihah
   i really loved her, because, whenever i told her what exactly is bugging me, she would always know the right thing to say..she would normally not comfort me with some niice word, but she will rationalize everything in a lighter sense, even adding a comic hint into it, leaving me with stomach ache because of laughing fit she caused me..sometime, i do wonder, why exactly i am born to be her sister when all this while i have been acting nothing like an older sister at all..whenever she was feeling sad, she called me, but somehow, i dunno the right thing to say, whatever i tried, will make her feel no better at all, so i just listen, and let all the pujuk-ing be done by momma..bottomline is my sis was the best shoulder anyone in the whole wide world that is sad could ever hoped for..
2. my bff, ajim
   this is another person whom i felt really comfortable to confide all my problems to because he have this caring, brotherly presence about him..he would say all the right thing to calmed me down and helped me to see the problem as nothing big at all..he makes me feel better at once, ookayy, it was weird since ever since we knew each other, we have only met for about three times, including the first meeting doing MARA interview, yet i get so close to him, not in lovey-dovey way of course..and for sumone that i know, and havent had the chance of meeting (yes, i am talking about u anNa) u make me feel the same way as ajim did which is why i am completely smitten to u..but somehow, whenever i am feeling sad, i found myself not able to talk about it to u at all..i feel awkward all of the sudden..maybe because of the fact that we have never met, but please understand, i love ajim as much as i love u now, which mean, u dont have to feel insecure whenever i was around...
3. my other besties, syates..
   well, its just the relief feeling u felt when dumping all ur problem to sumone..but now, since she was studying abroad, its just hard to contact him...
4. my dongseng, syuha, rozan..
   i rarely told them when something is bothering me, since i am bound to the older sister mentality, i've told u before, mainly, if i am feeling sad, and needing sumone to make me feel better without me having to tell what bothers me, they were the perfect person..who ever know rozan ecspecially will know exactly what i means..haha..i miss them..*sigh*
5. my ayah..
   he was not the best person to talk to..but whenever i called him, he would either laugh it out, making me laugh too, or say something that will make me stop feeling sad and see sense, and tell me something like we-should-work-this-out-together thingy..and it make me felt loved and secured..:)

thats it, one thing i learned is that the one u like sometimes isnt the one u would share ur problem with...well, i always thought the first person u would turn too whenever u felt bad was ur betrothed, and i tried (only because he asked me too) but then i regret telling him, as the response i get was "...................", exactly, nothing! he doesnt event say one word to make me feel better, *sigh*, lets just not hope later on...but, the very best solution is tell HIM..since He is the Almighty one that have all the solution. well, productive muslim once said (fb stats) : 

Prayer changes things.worry changes nothing.

so instead of worrying about what u can do .

just pray and think of what Allah can do for you :)

lastly, i thanked for all my  friends for being there..luv u lots!